…is almost done..PRAISE ALLAH! as this year comes to a close, i am aware that many things are different than they were last year. last year i didn’t have a care in the world…save moving my life to spartanburg…now i have money cares…relationship cares…job cares…things are changing and i’m not sure how its going to work out…i’m really not sure where i’m going to be in 4 years…am i still going to want to do this? am i going to be burnt out? (i’m afraid that this is a possibility because in efforts to make the program amazing i’m really starting to feel the effects and i’m not sure if this is what i really want for years and years to come) next year is going to be a challenge but i know i still won’t have room to complain to anyone because i’ll still do far less than anyone else on the staff…so i’ll continue to keep my mouth shut…one week of school and then four days of spring band camp…

…and then june starts…and june won’t stop until july comes

is it july yet? cause i’d really like to take a nap…

A nice run after a week where you really deserve it…priceless

lemonlemonlemon:

insomnialy:

this might be my favorite thing ever. well, right after Falcor and ice cream.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Yes. Just yes.

…in sunday school. i didn’t really want to go to sunday school or church…but my mother thought it would be nice for both of her children to join her in sunday school and church today…so i obliged and went. i wasn’t even in class for 5 minutes before the gay marriage issue came up…and i almost lost it. it astonishes me the bullshit that people actually believe and try to indoctrinate our children with. i looked at my sister and said…i’ve got to get out of here…and gina said…if you need to leave then leave. no judgement just leave…i know you don’t like this stuff…and of course the teacher sees this converstation going down and she wants to hear my opinion..which i would really REALLY like to keep to myself. after some prodding i finally open up and i got shot the hell down (of course) not only did i get shot down…i got read to from the bible…and a woman got up and went and got the pastor who came in and started spouting bullshit about how “un-natural” homosexuality was and how we can’t have small children being raised by two dads or two moms because its not natural and children don’t need to be around that. at this point…i shut down. (i also told gina that the last time i checked two dads are better than none…and being raised in a single parent household is un-natural…thoes kids are being messed up beyond belief and will not know how to function in society…give me an effing break) i was no longer listening, i was no longer present i really just wanted to get out of there. i turned to my sister again and said “swear to God if you are listening to this garbage and you are believing this i will punch you in the mouth”

i know that people are not fans of gay marriage…but its crazy to hear it outright…and i’m actually pretty positive that there was a kid there who is gay and i’m pretty sure he is struggling with it. i want him and all other youth who are struggling with their sexuality to know that its ok…and you are normal…and you will be alright…there are people (straight people even) who are willing to stand up for your right to love and be with who you want. 

i’m done…with the baptist church

That girl lost quite a few friends today…love it

i just woke up…too early for my taste…but none the less still up and decided to check my facebook…bad idea because i see this little gem that someone has posted.

“Proud to be a Christian, an American, and a Conservative. God bless America.”

This is a statement that only contains thirteen words…and it stopped me dead in my tracks. my temperature rose and i literally felt like i was losing control for a hot second. i know its a backhanded comment about amendment 1…my current status is just as backhanded…but come on now. stop hiding behind things that you think mask what is really in your heart…hate.

Jesus did not say “Love this group of people…but scorn this other group of people” he said “LOVE ERRBODY” 

…i’m sure America had some founding fathers with some *cough* tendencies…lets just be for real here…being an American has nothing to do with taking someones rights from them…i actually thought being an American was giving rights to people who are being denied them…silly me

America will truly be blessed when all the hate is erased…hate not only of homosexuals but of blacks, mexicans, asians, cripples…and anyone else who decided to be different when they stepped out of bed this morning.

Sometimes I really hate being alone. I wish I had more people to hang out with here. I think this is the part of growing up that I’m most uncomfortable with. And I know it’s a growing up thing. I need to get on that…the growin up thing. I also need to find better things to do with my time than sitting in my house alone. One can’t watch tv all day or run forever. If anyone knows anyone else in the Spartanburg area…lemme know!

I met six kittens today. I think one of them is meant for me

benjtomlinson:

Saw this on a friends FB wall

I’ll actually reblog this shit

Also. I’m pricing breast reductions. Score one for trying to be a skinny bitch